I've been in a weird place lately. Over the past two weeks I have been watching Smallville from season one to season nine. Today I've having Smallville withdrawal waiting for Friday to come to start season ten.
I watch ed 'Taking of Pelham 1 2 3' and Travolta's character kept saying that we all have a debt of death to pay. After watching this started playing music. A few song came on and then “The Outsider” by A Perfect Circle came on it keyed into how I was feeling and I put it on repeat. Then these lyrics just spoke to me:
Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time,
What's your rush now?
Everyone will
Have
His
Day
To
Die
It struck me as a universal truth. It's something that all religions fail to take into account or gloss over. The stress about get right for heaven. I think if you realize that you have a debt of death to pay, most people will have less stressful lives.
Those words rung in my ear helping to understand that everyone cries over people dying. Everyone has that debt to pay its the final debt you have to pay on this earth. You should be happy for them no matter how long they lived, they have paid their final debt. That's something to rejoice about.
Maybe that's why I have yet to feel bad. I can say that I did go to a wake of a died friend and the grief around me gave me a panic attack. I had to leave. I think its instinct of me why I haven't gone to many funerals. I think I can't handle all the grieve around me.
